Monday, November 07, 2005
its been realli a long time since i've blogged.. sighs.. da one whole month of hols is just so busy.. since today im ao free, i think i shld update this stupid blog..
i din go sch today feel so sick man.. sighs... was coughin lyk hell da whole day.. havin fever n runnin nose.. cant even open my eyes this mornin..
i din have proper sleep everyday.. im just realli realli very tired now.. every nite when im suppose to b slpin, i wld just open my eyes evry hr to check my phone fur his msg.. i just cant let myself to b in deep slp.. sigh.. im afraid he wld have just msg mi in da middle of da nite lyk usual.. i just wan to reply him asap whenever he msg mi.. but these days, he just seems to b so far away fr mi.. *sob*
no matter how long im waitin, da msg n call just nv cum.. da onli thing i can do is just wait.. wait fur him to feel better.. wait fur him to see my existence.. wait fur him to talk to mi... wait fur him to ask mi out.. wait fur him to realise im waitin..
after all, i just feel that im their third party.. is it my fault to get myself into all this?? i dunnoe.. shld i just dun think bout him n get on wif my life...?? im tryin... y is my life upside down now because of this guy.. sigh..
why he cannot just talk to mi when he's so sad.. im willin to listen to him.. i just want to be there fur him.. ...
i onli can suffer quietly myself here.. he wld never know.... ...
...La NaNa...
8:47 PM