Tuesday, November 29, 2005
wah.. cant wake up in da mornin man.. lucky shawn called mi to wake up.. haha.. he very power lah.. that time can call 35 times even i if i nv ans.. laughs.. -yawn- so tired.. im late again.. felt so bad.. everytime i meet julian go school together is always i make him late too.. -laughs-
when we are on da train, guess who sms mi man?? -laughs- yw msged mi.. haha.. so surprisingly.. im so shocked.. my jaw dropped when i read the msg.. haha.. so he said was thinkin of meetin mi fur breakfast.. wah.. im lyk thinkin wat special day today is.. haha.. realli shockin man.. too bad.. im havin class at 9.. laughs.. if not i dun mind meetin him fur breakfast.. so funny lah.. he's early yet im late.. haha...
dunnoe why will he tot of mi this mornin.. haha.. mayb he dun.. mayb its just that his gal wasn't free to meet him.. *irritated*
he's still da same lah.. everytime msged half way will go disappear one.. laughs.. he wld b lyk never reply mi in the end.. den i'll b waiting if he wld reply.. realli hate that feelin.. sumtimes realli wonder is his phone or his character.. guess this is just him.. love to ignore ppl half way thru da conversation.. laughs..
-sighs- today never go work again.. was shivering inside lecture durin pacc man.. think i realli lack of slp lor.. sigh.. felt so bad never go work.. its lyk not i dun wanna work but im not feelin well.. thinkin bout tml have to go back, i realli dunnoe wat to say to josline.. these weeks she kept scoldin mi n stuff.. i noe im lyk takin her fur grunted.. but sumtimes its realli no choice.. lyk i got make up lectures n stuff.. but sum how she just seems lyk dun believe mi..
its gd that she's followin da rules n regulations.. but sumtimes i just feel certain things are not my fault lor.. sigh.. i hope she can understan how i feel.. mayb bcuz im treatin her more lyk a fren den an in-charge.. think i needa change at this pt.. *stress*
... i am seems to be realli overworked.. had too lil rest.. -sigh- to think bout it, i dun realli needa do so.. i just dunnoe y i choose to keep myself so damn busy.. my life is upside down now.. just feel so tired n that i have very lil time in life.. ...
...La NaNa...
12:05 AM
Monday, November 28, 2005
... -yawn- so tired man.. today is da same old day.. work work work.. think im realli becummin workaholic... laughs... now im feelin so sick man..
today work up den go town to meet ya hui fur lunch.. she's a very nice person to tok to.. but i just feel so weird being with her.. -sigh- wah.. at da make up course, da make up we put is so damn thick lah.. is realli full make up man.. n its lyk my face looks lyk im gonna sings chi opera lah.. -laughs- can feel that my face is lyk cryin out fur air man.. haha.. cant wait to remove it..
met mel at habour front after da course before work lah.. she wore this long skirt n i think its very nice man.. she looks very diff but i think it suit her.. -laughs- hope she dun see this n just keep smilin to herself.. haha.. sum time she just cant stop thinkin that she looks weird.. i understan but just hope she have more confidence.. laughs..
dear.. its good that u try sumthin new.. laughs.. sumtimes not everyone thinks da same so must have confidence in wat u lyk.. even if they think otherwise yea.. this will make life easier.. -laughs-
so tired... worked at coast today.. got sum function man.. wah.. all ang mo agn.. but never mind.. they are nicer.. haha.. just that sum time i cant catch wat they tokin.. kept walkin here n there.. but so surprise, today time realli pass damn fast lah.. laughs..
yeah.. ying jie got into bikini bar too man.. laughs.. today 3 of us work together.. though im not wif em at same section but i just feel happy n dun feel alone.. laughs.. mayb cuz i noe theres sumone im close wif there.. haha..
now i hope ying will get used to it n her legs not tired le.. -hee-
-sigh- din have much time to tok to mel n ying today man.. just realise my life lyk damn busy.. laughs.. guess its oso gd bah.. den time will pass faster.. haha..
feelin so sick man.. sighss.. now got sore throat n flu.. blow blow blow.. thruout da whole nite chattin i just kept blowin my nose.. so xin ku.. haha.. i think im mad le man.. sighs.. haha.. *craving to go ktv* laughs..
=====baby rach... pls call mi soon kae.. im very worried bout u.. dun wanna u to face everythin alone.. i love u kae.. sighs..
...La NaNa...
2:14 AM
Thursday, November 24, 2005
i'm so super tired.. ...
im tryin to make myself seems like a super woman.. -laughs- just took up a job at bikini bar.. i've started workin there fur two days.. not bad huh.. -laughs-
i'm realli very tired lah.. doin two jobs and study at same time.. sum times i just dun understan why i so crazy.. -laughs- i dunnoe if im realli enjoyin wat im doin now lah.. i mean, i go sch, den go work n den go out in da nite.. cum home super late n slp super late.. slp so lil den next dae needa wake up so super early.. sum time i just think wow.. im so power man.. haha..
today i totally din wake up to go sch lah.. haha.. was slpin like a dead log lah.. shawn miss called mi 35 times i oso din hear lor.. -laughs- so i just wake up nicely at da time fom tutorial ends lor.. haha.. slack n slack n slack.. din go sch, still late fur work man.. -laughs-
time passed kinda fast today.. mayb cuz theres lotsa ppl lor.. so mani customers.. im super sleepy lah.. but i just keep on remindin myself on wat josline told mi.. must keep smilin.. so tired.. think my mouth gonna split lor.. smile n smile.. i realli wonder if ppl wld think im sick not.. laughs.. just hope i dun look idiotic.. -laughs- wah.. today got new arrivals can.. so nice!!! da new shoes are freakin nice lah!! i like man.. sumtimes i think workin at ebase is just throwin all da money back at them..
but its like da new shoes r so so nice lor.. -laughs- now im super broke yet im super tempted to buy stuffs.. i think my brain is realli mad..
so scary can.. its like shawn told mi he'll cum find mi after moi work.. den julian suddenly appear at my shop tellin mi he will wait fur mi to go home together.. all of them r lyk out of sudden lah.. den i cant get shawn so how i gonna tell him dun cum man.. oh man.. one more one more.. sean msged mi that she's like on her way to ps lor.. or man.. this is headach man.. i dunnoe how lah.. felt so bad can.. askin julian to go home fers.. went fur coffee wif sean.. aiya.. so guilty.. lucky shawn din cum.. if not i realli dunnoe wat to say to all of em lah.. -sighs-
i have so mani nice frens man.. haha.. sean so nice... she used tissue paper to do roses fur mi lor.. fers time i see such things... n its lyk so so so nice lah... haha.. she's so lucky, hols den just stayin at home do nuttin.. so nuttin to do, did da roses fur mi.. -laughs-
tada!! da roses that sean made fur mi.. so nice rite?? haha.. so environmental friendly lor.. laughs... ...
sigh.. jeff asked mi to go clubbin at zouk tonite.. when my bus went pass zouk, im lyk so tempted lor.. haha.. even i din club, i oso slp so late man.. laughs.. oh man.. im realli crazy.. haha.. talked to him on da phone.. haha.. fers time.. so farni.. -laughs-
... realli needa slp le.. its lyk tml still got stupid itab.. dun wanna b late man.. sighs.. so super tired...
...La NaNa...
2:32 AM
Thursday, November 10, 2005
... im sooooo bored....!!! so so so bored...!! no calls, no msg.. i called him today... he dun seems lyk wanna tok to mi.. sighss.. feel so irritated... *sigh*
...La NaNa...
11:37 PM
Monday, November 07, 2005
its been realli a long time since i've blogged.. sighs.. da one whole month of hols is just so busy.. since today im ao free, i think i shld update this stupid blog..
i din go sch today feel so sick man.. sighs... was coughin lyk hell da whole day.. havin fever n runnin nose.. cant even open my eyes this mornin..
i din have proper sleep everyday.. im just realli realli very tired now.. every nite when im suppose to b slpin, i wld just open my eyes evry hr to check my phone fur his msg.. i just cant let myself to b in deep slp.. sigh.. im afraid he wld have just msg mi in da middle of da nite lyk usual.. i just wan to reply him asap whenever he msg mi.. but these days, he just seems to b so far away fr mi.. *sob*
no matter how long im waitin, da msg n call just nv cum.. da onli thing i can do is just wait.. wait fur him to feel better.. wait fur him to see my existence.. wait fur him to talk to mi... wait fur him to ask mi out.. wait fur him to realise im waitin..
after all, i just feel that im their third party.. is it my fault to get myself into all this?? i dunnoe.. shld i just dun think bout him n get on wif my life...?? im tryin... y is my life upside down now because of this guy.. sigh..
why he cannot just talk to mi when he's so sad.. im willin to listen to him.. i just want to be there fur him.. ...
i onli can suffer quietly myself here.. he wld never know.... ...
...La NaNa...
8:47 PM