Thursday, August 11, 2005
-yawn- so tired now.. din go school and work today.. *sigh* feel lyk an idiot man.. im so poor yet i took mc and din go... hmmm... guess next month i gonna eat bread n plain water le.. haha.. im always so poor!! arghhh.. irritatin..
Rach came over and accompany me man.. she's so nice.. gee.. i think im crazy, im sick yet me n her were munchin a whole bar of chocs.. family sized oh.. haha.. feel tt we r very power man.. lol.. i had never know slackin at my place can be quite fun too oh.. haha.. mayb cuZ she's here.. i love her accompany.. such a great friend to have..
im sick and there's ppl so carin of mi.. oh man, i juZ feel bad tt they r doin all these.. even not action, words r juZ as sweet as honey to mi.. they making mi guilty.. y would you wanna spend money to take cab down to my place juZ to pass mi Ferrero Rocher.. am i worth tt effort?? seein me fur 5 mins made you damn happy.. oh man.. you made me believe in sum way that you r true.. but i still dunnoe myself.. *sigh*
i dunnoe why, ever since wat happened that nite, i juZ kept stop askin myself do i realli miss him?? i mean i tot this whole two months has help mi to forget him.. im always remindin myself how bad he treat mi n how little attention, love and care he gave mi.. i know his not the one and i know he has confirm moved on.. y cant i??
im juZ a bitch who treat everyone fur grunted.. why you wanna treat me so nice?? i mean if i cant forget him to be with you, how would u feel and react?? will you still talk so nicely to me?? give me the attention that i love?? i realli dunnoe.. i noe im self fish to keep u hangin but i realli dunnoe if im ready.. im realli sorry kae..
im juZ losin my faith n focus in every single thing now.. i dun have time.. i juZ feel that everyday is so damn pack n its makin mi very tired.. i cant breath.. i wan a peace of mind to let mi truly noe myself n to think of wat n who is it tt i truly wan..
...La NaNa...
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