-Baby Nic-

You don't have to be perfect for me.
Because I'm not perfect enough for you.
I know that this fiarytale will last long.
And forever.
I did not regret knowing you in the first place.
You walked into my life,
And gave me the happiness I wanted.
Without you,
my life would be incomplete.
You gave me everything I wanted.

I'm in love with you before I met you.
It seems like I saw you in my dreams.
When I finally saw you,
it seems that I'm waiting for my whole life.
I know that you're more than I wanted.
That is why I love you.

I just want a little hug from you.
And I would be happy for the rest of the day.
Loving you is one of the greatest thing I ever had in my life.
I love you. x))

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

today is my off day and we went sentosa.. jus the two of us.. was quite fun.. but the place jus gives mi alot of memories.. the seah im food centre.. everything.. even the porridge.. i guess he can see my moodiness on my face.. i guess he can sense im feelin somethin.. i jus nv say.. i will not say.. i am willin to face the memories with him.. build new memories with him to cover the old ones..

after tanning, we went to vivo to watch 881.. finally i get to watch that show.. finally.. after waiting fur weeks.. he brought me to watch jus like he promised.. really sweet of him.. thanks baby.. but i can actually see that he dun wanna watch 881 at all.. i know.. i can sense it long ago.. he din say.. he will not say.. he dun wanna upset me.. i know.. *sighs* sometime i jus feel that i am so demanding as thou i am takin a pistol in his head tellin him to do the things i wanna it be.. i noe i am demanding.. i am jus dyin to watch the show.. cuz the show is by roystan tan.. the director that i respect.. but i noe he dun wanna watch.. all his frenz tell him its not nice.. but i dun care.. im selfish.. sorry.. really sorry..

alot of things i nv say.. i jus dunno how to say.. now quarrelling with him n my dad, i dunno how to handle my emotion.. i dunno how to show how i feel.. i dunno how to put em in words.. sighs.. really sorry..

...La NaNa... 11:46 PM

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

i have choosen a new path in my life.. i hope this new path will lead me thru wonderful times.. i believe in my new guy.. i believe in wat he can bring to mi.. happiness.. i strongly believe.. *hee*

...La NaNa... 1:48 AM

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

been starving myself for weeks.. ever since the day he wanna leave, i start to think that its not onli because of my character but also my image.. im too fat.. too lazy to beautify myself..

i started to eat only one meal a day.. it wasn't too bad as that meal will contain carbohydrate.. and that has make mi lose 3kgs in 2 weeks.. really happy with the result.. as everyone can really see the sudden change.. but still, he din see it.. he din realise i have become smaller in size.. *sighs* so i decided i still needa lose one more kg... and now, im eatin only one slice of bread a day wif plain water.. two advantage of such dietin habit: (1) i get to save $$... (2) i get to lose weight.. hahaha..

im usin up all my energy to bear with the starvation that i am sufferin.. my frens always say cannot eat is a sufferin.. now i really agree.. i am not sure if i like wat im doin.. but i jus wish to seek his attention, care and concern.. i can be as skiny as those beautiful girls, jus give mi some time..

freedom.. what is freedom?? i dunno how to really define it.. what type of freedom shld a couple give to each other?? can someone tell mi??

i am tryin so hard now to give him all the freedom he wants in the world.. no matter what he wanna do, i let him be.. during this 3 weeks, i learn that absence is actually a very good thing.. and also, i learn that he dun really need mi.. i think he enjoy the freedom he's havin.. n i will continue to give.. in a r/s, both shld give n take.. think i take too much so now is the time for mi to give.. im willin to give all i can..

been really tired with myself.. studyin, workin, dietin and tryin hard to please him.. i think what im doin now is not enuff.. i needa lose another 2kgs.. needa get one more part time in the night.. shld go school every single day.. and onli meet him once or twice a week.. dun care bout what he's doin outside.. dun care bout who he is meetin.. dun care a bout his whereabout.. dun care of what he wanna do with his day..

dunno if this will work.. but this is what u told mi... u wan ultimate freedom... yups...

...La NaNa... 12:38 PM

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Friday Night @ MOMO

...La NaNa... 5:39 AM

Friday, September 22, 2006

everyone has pasts.. i know u have too.. you always say u love me.. yes.. i can feel it.. but it is a different type of love.. its a love that you are being forced to show and give.. its not a love that you truly have.. y i say so? cause i can see that you are still living in your past.. living in her shadow.. you make mi feel that you only want her.. y? cause i can see that she is part of your life.. there do not really have a "us" in your dictionary.. you are not proud of me.. none of your friends know that i'm yours.. it make me have this urge to do the same back to you.. you make me have the urge to erase everything.. end everything.. i do not ask for much.. just let me know if i'm not the one that can make you proud.. if i'm not the one that can make you happy, just tell me.. i know you will be happier with other girls.. im sorry.. i will make it so obvious to other people that we are not an item k.. you know i do not have the confidence.. i do not feel special.. i do not feel pretty.. i do not feel good.. i always feel lousy.. you know i hate my life.. i do not know what i really wants.. i know i do not want to live.. i know i do not deserve you.. i know i am not good enough for you.. creating trouble for you.. making you feel bad.. i know i am a torture for you.. i know i am a burden for you.. i know i do not suit you.. i know you do not like me to think.. i know i think too much.. but i cant help it.. i am here.. thinkin.. shld i leave you now.. *sighs*

-i have a major heart break- T_T

...La NaNa... 12:32 PM

something very interestin i have found.. as i go thru william's blog, i saw this link & i try it.. it is to see what car best fits ya personality.. guess what...? i am my dream car!! haha.. this is the car i always wanna buy in the future..

I'm a Mercedes SLK!

You appreciate the finer things in life. You have a split personality - wild or conservative, depending on your mood. Wherever you go, you like to travel first class. Luxury, style, and fun - who could ask for more?

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

...La NaNa... 10:40 AM

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Ladies Night @ MOMO